Early and Late Career Collaboration #2: Why Family Medicine?
Featuring Lilian White, MD
Here is our second view from our opposite vantage points. You can read more by Lilian White on her own Substack:
Why Family Medicine? (By Hans)
I knew from age 4 that I wanted to be a doctor. At that point in my life I had been seen at home once or maybe more by a general practitioner who did housecalls. I had also been hospitalized with abdominal pain. I remember riding up in the elevator, teddy bear in hand, to the x-ray department for testing. Starting at age 6, I had yearly eye doctor visits, most of them with an older doctor who practiced in a 1920’s apartment next to his own living quarters. I remember his slow, methodical examinations and his persistent concern for the worsening severity of my nearsightedness.
In high school I pictured myself as a general practitioner, in Swedish ALLMÄNLÄKARE. Läkare, our word for physician, literally means healer and the prefix, allmän, means general. But having had all that exposure to ophthalmology and also being interested in photography, including darkroom work, I started to think that maybe I wanted to be an eye doctor.
As an exchange student in America, I sat on the living room shag carpet in front of my host family’s Zenith console TV and watched Marcus Welby every week. That, along with my general infatuation with America, grew into a vision of being a general practitioner here. The term Family Practice (now Family Medicine) and the residency requirement to hang out your shingle had just come about and wasn’t all that well known. The first certifications in the new specialty, Family Practice, actually happened around the same time I spent my senior year here.
After high school and my military service, I applied to only one medical school, Uppsala University. I knew my grade point average should get me in. (Sweden’s high school is tougher than here and medical school is longer, so there is no general 4 year college between.)
During the six month wait for medical school acceptance and start date, I worked as a substitute teacher. From second grade to eleventh, definitely easier in the lower grades, I totally enjoyed seeing kids learning and making connections about how the world works. For a fleeting moment, I thought, “what if I don’t get accepted to Uppsala”, but reassured myself that I could keep subbing until I got in somewhere else.
In medical school at Uppsala, I found I enjoyed all the clinical subjects and rotations and very early on I took a liking to psychiatry and I saw how it intersected with so many of the other specialties. In my ophthalmology rotation I learned that people with high grade myopia, nearsightedness, often have a higher risk for retinal detachments. That made me decide that I didn’t want to risk being a visually impaired eye doctor.
Things really helped me make up my mind when, as the regulations worked in Sweden at least back then, halfway through the clinical years of our 5 1/2 year curriculum, I moonlighted many weekends seeing urgent care patients right next to the “real” emergency room. My shift lasted from early Friday evening to early Monday morning. I loved it, and because the ER was right next door, I never felt intimidated by the cases I saw.
To this day, I enjoy the variety of seeing both rare and common conditions (like Marcus Welby) coupled with a feeling of satisfaction when I can explain things (like a teacher) so that patients feel reassured and empowered to deal with their disease, even when most or all of their problems are psychological in nature. (I am often the only doctor around that is comfortable with psychopharmacology.)
Family Medicine suits my temperament. It keeps me curious to learn, connected with my patients and allows me to have a broad view. It lets me look for the big picture, rather than wear blinders and saying, “that’s not my department”.
Why Family Medicine? (By Lilian)
Some decisions in life are clear - a distinct, well-defined moment in time.
Others are born from a slower, more gradual coming to the light.
In either case, the ending is the same.
But the journey to the decision impacts us along the way. This is the story of my decision to become a family doctor.
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As a new medical student, I remember meeting all my similarly bright-eyed and bushy-tailed classmates for the first time. We gathered in the big auditorium, waving hello and learning names.
A question hung in the air, sometimes spoken, sometimes implied:
“What specialty are you planning to go into?”
A future part of our identities was already beginning to take shape.
I had thought at the time I would become a pediatrician. I loved being around children and had spent a summer as a camp counselor and later worked as a daycare assistant in college. I thought it would suit my personality, which seemed as good a reason as any. However, a wise faculty physician at the school strongly encouraged us all to attend a variety of specialty interest group meetings and to keep an open mind about what we might learn. So, like many M1s, I often stayed after class to listen to the different meetings. The free dinners didn’t hurt, either.
I distinctly recall the first family medicine interest group meeting I attended. Dr. Kate Conway shared her love of family medicine and the breadth of what a family doctor could do. And I fell in love with the family medicine myself. How everyone didn’t leave that room a family doctor wanna-be, I’m not sure. I knew I had found my people.
The conviction of my decision only grew during my time spent with another family physician, Dr. A. Patrick Jonas (whom I wrote about more here). I became enamored with everything family medicine, borrowing book after book from the packed shelves of his office. The personal, continuous patient-physician relationship fascinated me. I loved the idea of caring for whole families. Caring for children AND their parents felt a little like cheating when it came to addressing concerns in childhood. The undifferentiated complaint (e.g. cough, abdominal pain, etc.) became a puzzle to be solved. I loved the thought of being the first point of contact for my future patients - someone they could go to and trust with their concerns.
Dr. Skip Leeds, another influential family physician, taught me the value of family medicine in academia and research as we dove into projects on developing a differential diagnosis using metacognitive techniques. Who better to teach the skill of differential diagnosis than a physician who may care for any patient with any complaint? The family doctor may or may not be the definitive point of care (some estimate we can definitively address up to 80% of a patient’s concerns); but regardless our larger role is to help guide them along the path closer to their “values, goals and dreams” as Dr. Jonas teaches.
In short, I was in awe.
The family physician was the quintessential doctor to me.
Did my dedication ever waiver?
Absolutely. There was a brief period during my 3rd year clinical rotations I thought I might become a surgeon. I enjoyed the precision, the high after a successful surgery. But after several weeks, I began to miss my conversations with the patients, the humans on the other side of the drape.
So this is the story of how I decided to become a family doctor. I appreciate my subspecialty colleagues greatly! And I love that rather than specializing in a body part or a particular procedural technique (both of which we need!), as a family doctor, I truly enjoy specializing in the general (read: broad, deep), personal knowledge of the human in front of me and how my medical knowledge may help them find healing or relief.
This continuous, sometimes quite intimate relationship is also what makes family medicine so challenging. As with any other committed relationship, it can be difficult at times for both patient and physician, to say the least! And yet, as one of my mentors recently gently reminded me, it’s also what makes being a family doctor so meaningful. As I’ve been getting to know my new panel of patients over the last few months, I’ve come to appreciate more and more the human center that is family medicine.
What a blessing to be a family doctor.